Why am I freaking out about my measurements / weigh-in?

OMG - I'm freaking out - why am I shaking just because it's weigh-in day?

I feel shattered although the results are not so bad - within 6 weeks I've gained so much endurance and I have made only little changes to my diet to not starve myself - yes, I've gained 1,5 kgs (no wonder) - I've lost 2 centimeters around my hip and gained some in my tighs - is this good? Seems that's where the new muscle power is coming from.

Phew - I really need to write this down and make my video because I'm really anxious about all of this, seeing my weight go up and my mind is shrieking: "Oh my god, this is so terrible, I don't want this, I want my fat to go away, leave me alone!!!"

I mean, I would be the last person on this planet to complain if I had 20-30kgs to loose, but being so terribly obese while I love sports and being outside so much really really hurts me! I have tears running down my face now.

It seems I don't take this weight loss thing serious enough!

But I just want to find a way without starving myself, with having the same energy as I have at the moment.

Why is this weigh-in/measuring day freaking me out so much? Can anyone relate?

Please send me any support you have to keep me going, trusting, and not jumping off the wagon. I had 6 weeks and it feels like I've screwed them, although I was so confident - how can the stupid numbers not reflect that?

I feel so alone ... next week I will go to Germany and I will be anxious all the time again if anyone remarks me not having lost anything. I'm so tired of it. It's not the only reason this is depressing but it's just that I can't change anything anymore ...

Screw it!

What am I going to do next - what are my conclusions about everything?

*taking a deep breath*

1. I WILL STAY ON TRACK!
I will keep exercising - everyday.
I will continue mealplanning.

2. I WILL START TO SCEDULE
I will scedule workouts, mealplans AND ALSO the weigh-in/measuring - this will help me to be more serious about everything I think and to plan out more smartly.

3. I WILL WORK PRIORITIZING
It seems that I sometimes don't take nutrition for serious and plan everything how I REALLY WANT IT. This is true to other things in my life too.


Was there anything else this week?

My dog, that I had for over 14 years, died, I had visit from relatives I haven't seen in a very long time, I had some arguements with my husband, we still had car problems and no money in the bank this week again. At least the thing with the money has been cleared. The cars are running again but there's still some things to get checked.

Considering all of this I really could be happy that my progress hasn't stalled even more, normally I would have fallen off the wagon far sooner.

AND I RODE MY BIKE TO WORK LAST WEEK! HUGE LEVEL UP!!!!

So, overall I'm still happy - it's just the measuring day that got me freaked out - but thanks to this blog I have somewhere I can reflect on this and not push it down without looking at it.

Thank you for all the support I already have received - you're so great!!!!!

You keep me accountable - 7th video already in 2017!!!!

<3

Next week I will be in Germany for work and I don't know if I'll be able to write or film, but I will post something anyways - maybe make some nice footage there.

Yours,
Elanor

Easter Video - and the coolest home-gym inspiration

Hey everyone!

I'm a little late with posting this video (but I'm happy it came out at the right time) and the quality is really crap - but here it comes:

Now, I'm so happy because I've been sticking to my weekly updates for 6 weeks now and my YouTube-Channel really starts to start off because it seems I got noticed by the YouTube algorithm for doing videos regularly. This channel is some kind of an experiment for me too to learn about filmmaking and web-marketing (without pushing to hard) and it seems to start moving - although my video quality really is not good at the moment.

Anyway, I was subscribed by several people and one of them made really inspiring videos about his Backwood Workouts and I wanted to share them with you - let's get creative making our own home gym ;-)

What if life is a test?

Hello my fellow Rebels,


here goes this weeks
UPDATE:

this week really was full of challenges; our car broke down, my husband got sick and I had to do all the farm work alone, the money didn't arrive the date it was planned and everyone in my family was really busy with their own work. I was left with all my farmwork alone ...

BUT!

... that way I was active everyday and more or less got all my goals in and this really surprised me because I was really struggling.

Even mealplanning finally starts to get easier and we had got 2 meals left over so we were able to go 1 more day without shopping. As I'm writing this, 2,5 kgs of chicken is baking in the oven for tomorrows family meeting. Yes, I'm especially proud of how I'm doing when life tests me.

This week I will leave out the question of the week, as I just want this update to be "out there". ;)

Having a daily workout routine really seems to be working out for me - this is what I feel woud be my answer for last weeks question.

Thank you for checking out this post!

Yours,
Elanor

Do you have to work out daily?

My Short list of an Update:

Question of the week: Do you also work out daily and just rotate the type of exercise or do you rest completely and then push with more intensity the other days?
My weekly weight loss journey's update: 2 weeks challenge is over - drinking water is becoming natural to me - mealplanning is still a struggle but it keeps getting better and I will find ways to improve.
Biking is great - much improvement - workouts done - did workouts daily this week!

Fitness Marshall Cardio Workout: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DX9R-...

Last weeks question:
Laptop really put stress out of my life and I feel much more productive and less stressed.

Next weeks new habit:
- working out everyday with strenght training every 2nd day.
- continue smart mealplanning

Yours,
Elanor